How Much Longer Must I wait?

Of late, I’ve realized I’m so guilty of being impatient. I have probably asked the question, “How long must I wait,” so much that God wants to personally come down and tell me to hush child. I’m like the “naughty kid” on a road trip that asks over and over, “how much longer” or “are we there yet!” Yes, I’m that kid and I still am that adult. Just put me on a plane. I need to get there quick. It’s at that time I’ve learnt how many times I have had to ask, how long must I wait? How long must I wait until I get the job? How long must I wait until I marry? How long must I wait until this storm passes?

Long Term Struggle

I’ve struggled with this area of my life and honestly, I still have my days where I have to get myself together. I have to do a constant self and heart check. I have been guilty of witnessing my friends get married, have children, work in their dream job, etc. to the point where I was so selfish in congratulating them because a part of me longed to be in their shoes. I couldn’t help but wonder, God, how long must I wait? God, when will it be my turn? God, I always receive the wedding invitations in the phone, but what about me? How long must I wait? Times seem my friends are taunting me I need to be quick and times I’m shy to confess, ‘she is not yet there.’ I’ve at times have had to look down and say, “Look, it’s not as you think….” And I have to give a reason why not yet, but who understands me? Matters are made more complex by the many articles I've documented in this blog sphere.

 For me it was that very desire to marry. This however changed when I came across this quote “When did the “I Do” become more important than the “well done”? There I realized that comparing my season in life with someone else’s could actually turn out to be the most stressing and complicated thing in my life. It’s similar to comparing our season of snow with our friend’s season of sand.

Season or Snow and Season of Sand

Just take it simply and ask, what would be the purpose of walking on sand at the beach in a trench coach and snow boots or walking in 12inch snow with a swimsuit and flip flops? None. But how comes I’m guilty of jumping time after time ahead of God’s timing that leads me down a road that just simply does not make sense. Then I’m justified to ask God what’s going on with our lives? I believe no. but what’s my problem, it’s being impatient and despising the word “wait”. The matter is made complex by the fact that I’m often tempted to take the word “wait” and associate it with “no,” never realizing that God has not necessarily said no. Trust me, I know it’s so hard to wait for something that we have a strong desire for. But then why should i not trust all will be well? Should I not keep up my faith? Certainly yes! I will not be making effort to blind my desires, needs or constant fears but I'll be feeding my soul and mind with materials necessary for achieving contentment. This is life, we are not in a competition, but we are here to run our race till the master says "Well done my faithful servant....Enter into my rest" Our rest in this world will be achieved when we learn whats our season.

I battled with this very issue for such a long time especially on committing to a long term relationship. This was until I found myself asking God to figure out the place of contentment in life. And it’s not easy dear friends.  But well I am beyond grateful that I’m making some progress. Contentment is not just a destination but also a lifestyle. I have learned that regardless of what season I face, whatever journey I go through, as long as I have not clearly heard God say it’s a closed door, I need not be anxious, I need not fear and I dare not doubt he certainly will lead me to the most opportune time to hook up with a lady and perhaps marry one day. 

I’ve to let my desires know that waiting time is not wasted time. I’ve to stay the course, stay committed to Christ, and rest in knowing that God has my best interest at heart. And friend remember, there is a time for everything and a season for every activity in heaven and God’s will for your life is far greater than any plan we could ever create. In due time, you shall reap if you do not give up.

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